Trust me you are not the worst on this forum. I tought myself for about 6months and then was diagnosed with a desease that eats away at your eye. My mom then got me lessons so that I could continue playing. I got lessons from the same man that I had clarinet lessons from. After about two years I was considered completely blind. I now have to learn by listening to someone and memorizing the music. A this point I am barely playing some of the easier classical songs. It takes a long time to learn so I would definately say That you are way better then me and you have been working in a shorter period then I have. Just have fun adn keep practicing.